Mothers Day

I miscarried this morning. 

And as much as I want to be fine with it

and as much as I want take my hurt to the Lord

I just want to be sad.

I want to take one day and just be sad. 

Sad for the lost baby.

Sad for me

Sad for our family

I want to throw a pity party, and cry a really ugly cry.

Then I want to pick myself back up and keep moving forward

Because that's what life is. 

Perpetually moving forward - because even through things feel sucky now

they won't always suck. 

So Mother's Day...

I guess the silver lining around today is I have my the sweetest daughter on the planet. I am so grateful to be a mother. To be HER mother. I am so grateful for her sticky kisses and toothy grins. When she plays with my hair and when she climbs onto of me. She is my little sweet angel and she fills my heart with joy.  

Another silver lining is I have the greatest mother around. She supports me and loves me and cares about me on my happy days and on my miserable days. She is there for me and loves me unconditionally. I hope to be half the mother she has been to me. She is truly a woman of virtue and beauty.